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Former Life

I live in two worlds.  This world and my other life of being Wyatt's mom.  Given a choice, I'd be in my former world.  I know in my heart that I will always be Wyatt's mom, but the reality is that he is not here.  I want him here - in this life; I don't want two lives, I want one life, with my son, my family, my future, my past, my legacy.  It's a daunting thing to know that your life ends with you - you have no future...I have no future.

Being a mom is a gift that transcends the daily responsibilities, trials, and joys of parenthood. Being a mom means there is another person in this world who is forever a part of you, joined eternally. I have that connection, no one can ever separate me from the love of my son; but there is a great difference between daily sharing the love of one here and remembering the love of one past.

                                                                                 I live in this life; I wish I lived in my former life.
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